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The Anxieties


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My heart beats in my chest

Like drums thumping out

The silence.

I begin to sweat,

I cannot tell if I’m breathing

Words echo and bounce

As if from down a long corridor.

I glance around, panicked,

Desperately clinging to anything

Real as if it is my life raft.

I sink down to the ground,

Flinch as anyone comes near,

Fear, fear, fear….

Rocking, crying, embarrassment,

Out of control, so out of control,

Mind whirling and manic,

The shame, oh the shame

Everyone notices, no one notices

Run, run, run.

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Cruelty of Time


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Timing is perfect,

Or perfectly awful.

The only thing I

Can count on is

For shit to

Go wrong.

 

Why? Why, I ask,

Does my fate have

The uncanny ability

To treat me like

An abusive lover.

Timing is a

Cruel joke,

Made to make

One sweat out life.

 

And, for what?

The glorious feeling

Of stress and despair?

What is the point?

Devilish laughter

Comes from

Father Time.

Fate colludes with

Him gladly.

The suffering

Of the peons

Pleases them

Greatly.


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“Entice the King!”

They said.

“It will be grand!”

They promised.

“All will be glorious!”

They exclaimed.

They enticed her

As she enticed her King

Spinning tails, promises

Of sweet love.

Soon the enticer

Became the enticed.

Ravenous, fierce

Primal desires

Fed one another

Like oxygen

To a flame.

The flame

Burned, hotter,

Scalding.

Then one day

It blew up.

Bitter

Disappointments

Loss of love,

Bleeding,

Children not

Held.

No heir.

Then the

Ultimate

Betrayal.

Her King was

Now enticed

by another.

Promises made

Not kept;

Chaos ensued.

Once regal, proud,

Beautiful.

Highest of

The high,

Now brought

So low.

Death awaits

And then stalls

As the blade

Fails to arrive.

Finally, she is

Now enticed

By death,

By her peace

By being pariah

No more.


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I am paralyzed

You are no

Longer with me.

I can no

Longer breathe.

My soul

And my future

Wrapped up

In your delicious,

Warm, strong arms

Is now crushed

Under the weight

Of what never was.

I can no

Longer fathom

A world with color.

I will never

Again be whole.

It was always

You.

Now it

Isn’t.

And I am alone,

Dark, longing,

Hating that I

Ever allowed

Myself to be

Sucked into

Your web of lies.

Knowing you

So well,

You would think

I would have

Known the truth.

I did,

I just

Turned my

Back on it.

I am drowning.

I am overcome.

I am without ME.

I am without YOU.

I am without LIFE.


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He’s life’s bitch,

A slave to his bottle,

Fucked up, sad boy,

Everything is

Not his fault.

He’s life’s bitch,

His job sucks,

His Windsor

Isn’t cold enough,

He’s all alone.

He’s life’s bitch,

Darkness,

bleak and drunk,

No shower for weeks,

The stench of

Depression.

Holding onto the walls

As you stumble

Around the house,

Drink until you

Pass out every

Fucking night.

Renewal


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I am a changeling

In this season of renewal

Inviting the metamorphosis

Of becoming a butterfly.

Colors warm the earth

Vivid, sparkling greens and blues

Quiet violets and tulips

Reaching for the sun

With jade leaves.

Spring rains kiss the grass

As Daffodils stand proudly

And I flit and I pause

To exchange pleasantries

With the happy daisies.

She Fades


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She bleeds out,

Onto the floor.

Doctors work

Furiously

To save her life.

She sees

The bright lights

Shining above her head.

She is fading,

The doctor tries to

Convince her to stay

With a blink,

She is gone.

The lights

Fade to black.

There is nothing.

The Blanket of Depression


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Drowning in a black hole,

Darkness that never ends.

Hopelessness at the end

Of a tethered, frayed rope.

Choking on an unknown lump,

Without any relief,

Everything is colorless,

A rope around my ankles

With an enormous rock attached.

Sleep is the only avoidance,

Helpless like a scared child,

Frightened of yourself,

Feeling worthless.

Crushing sadness for no reason,

Reaching out,

And there is no one.

Feeling controlled

By an abusive lover,

Monotony, sitting and staring.

Train in a dark tunnel

Coming at you.

The demon taunts.

The Road


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Driving along,

Seemingly endless road,

Out in the country.

Yellowish-tan gravel,

With divets and dust,

Dry weather,

Earth crunches

Beneath the tires.

 

Billowing cloud of dust,

Following the car,

A faithful shadow.

Passing cows,

In verdant meadows,

Honking as I pass them.

The sky is velvet blue,

Clear and bright,

Deep breaths,

Sighing at the beauty.

Soulmates


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Our love is so solid,

I can’t seem to understand

My blessed fortune.

So much loyalty,

Unconditional love,

And connection

That is beyond beautiful.

A richer life,

Now that he’s in it,

I wonder if angels above

Sent you to me

Like a gift from the heavens.

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