My heart beats in my chest
Like drums thumping out
The silence.
I begin to sweat,
I cannot tell if I’m breathing
Words echo and bounce
As if from down a long corridor.
I glance around, panicked,
Desperately clinging to anything
Real as if it is my life raft.
I sink down to the ground,
Flinch as anyone comes near,
Fear, fear, fear….
Rocking, crying, embarrassment,
Out of control, so out of control,
Mind whirling and manic,
The shame, oh the shame
Everyone notices, no one notices
Run, run, run.